Saturday, June 28, 2008

When I grow up I wanna be a...

Do you fell grown-up? I wonder if anyone ever truly feels grown up. I remember having a conversation with my Mom once in which she told me that she still looks in the mirror and expects to see her 20 year old self. For me its more of an internal drama. I still associate myself with the recent college grads and even college coeds. I've never been particularly concerned about the passage of time. Rob once told someone that he worked with that I wanted to be a wedding planner someday. The girl he was talking to (a 19 year old) gasped and said something to the effect of "but it's too late for her to switch jobs!" Rob and I laugh about that one quite often. Because it has never once dawned on me that my life holds endless possibilities regardless of my age.

But I still have high hopes that one of the things I might grow-up to be is a grown-up. There are certain things that I just cannot seem to master, despite all my attempts to be a grown-up. Those of you who know me may be surprised to realize that I actually act quite irresponsibly. I won't go into all the details, but here are a few examples:

  • I simply cannot keep a clean house -- at all. Not just neat, but clean. Both adjectives completely evade me (despite my being able to keep a very neat AND clean office space.)
  • I should not be able to own nice things. Nice things get ruined around me. Note to anyone shopping for Christmas gifts -- don't buy me nice things. I appreciate the thought but you actually give me guilt when I ruin/break the nice thing you gave me. A certain oriental rug comes to mind here...
  • My best friend and I have always joked about being co-presidents of the Lazy Club. Oh, am I lazy... See all previous blogs about television -- nuff said.
  • Procrastination is my middle name. See previous blog about my car.... Hello: 1800 reasons why procrastination is bad.

Oh, there are soooo many ways that I am not grown-up. So the question is... who here thinks I will ever grow-up? And who here thinks that they consciously recognize themselves as a grown-up and can tell me when they first realized this? The floor is yours.


Net Ghost said...

I feel like a grown-up, but it's not one of those things where you wake up one morning and suddenly you're all grown up. I think a lot of it had to do with my dad getting sick. Also, there's a difference between feeling OLD and feeling grown-up. I think your mom (or even your grandma) might feel grown-up, but they don't feel old.

Are you coming into Buffalo on Thursday? Are you driving?

Alex said...

We're driving in on Thursday and driving back on Tuesday (apartment searching on Monday!)

Literary Auntie said...

Um, you were in Buffalo and I didn't hear about it?

Also, I'm pretty certain that I'm never going to be "grown up." I think that's how it is. The people who do feel "grown up" are the people that everyone else sees as buzzkills.